Neglect

If I look back in life, I realize that I could have written more and when I sit down to actually jot down the reasons behind me neglecting my blog, they all seem to be quite futile. These past few years have been quite.. occupying. From the transition of school-college-university I , myself have faced many many transitions, they may not seem so on surface but one notices change within themselves only when they really want to. 

I have realized that I have successfully managed the art of not giving a damn about what people think. It has made my life quite happier. I have also become a much more private person, I no longer post statuses and pictures on facebook every day to welcome people to comment or intrude in my life. Though many people would have different opinions, I think extensive use of facebook has played quite a negative role in our lives.

But yes, I am sad that I haven’t written much in the past few years but at the same time I am glad about the moments I have spent. It feels somehow that we have started making memories only for the purpose of jotting those memories down, and I am completely against that, I suppose. Hahaha. But in any case, I hope I am able to both read and write more this year. 

Keep in touch

It's funny how the human mind can confuse us, the most simple things begin to look complicated to us, we over think. Most of the times, that is the biggest problem. 

All all the things I want to be, I want to be a humble human being. It is easy to think of oneself as extremely superior or inferior to others but to be human.. I believe it is one of the most difficult things. 

Sam: What do you call a child's doctor?

Me: A pediatrician

Sam: Preedreeeeaaaactriician. What that right?

Me: No. Peeediatrician.

Sam: Preee-

Me: NOT PREEE. It's PEEDIATRICIAN. Just forget about it okay?

Sam: Ok. Child specialist?

Me: Lol, yeah. You can say that

2nd of January 2015

I couldn't care less about New Year. Seriously. Although I was unusually perky on the 30th of December but other then that, my level of interest on the earth successfully completing an entire revolution around the sun is zero.

This year is gonna be huge though, I'll be starting university. I know that things haven't been going like I planned but atleast I'm progressing. And its not like I'm a failure or anything. I don't like to brag either but if someone really annoys me, I can defend myself. I hate the pity party. Always have. I just don't get how a person can consider himself so superior that he goes around treating other people like crap. That's something that really drives me insane. And I can't even watch another person getting treated like that, it's just not fair.

I unexpectedly met an old school friend the other day. It was really funny, apart from catching up on our usual gossip we talked about how much we've all grown up. Not physically growing up, more like how mature we've become. These two years of my life, I've successfully managed to learn the art of not giving a damn about what anybody thinks. It's funny how your priorities change. People leave, you leave people and life still goes on. You can't stop, the sun will rise anyway, no matter what, you have to get out of bed and face the day. But that's the beauty of it. You say you're stuck, that you don't have a choice, but every day, every single day when the sun rises, God gives you another chance.

Anyway, I'm supposed to write a stupid piece on obesity, I've been avoiding it for days but I guess I should really start. No wait my cousin just put on Annabelle. I really don't watch horror movies but then again who knows, maybe I'll like it.

"Welcome to the real world, its sucks. You're gonna love it."

So I'm officially a student of Mass communication. I actually studied pre-med. From a pretty good college that is, Ok. I studied in the best college in the city. But I couldn't get into med school on merit and self finance and studying privately was just waaay too expensive. I know my dad would have put me into a  med school without a blink of an eye if he could but its just we cant afford it. I really worked hard these two years though. When I look back, I put a lot of my self into these two years. I lost a lot of friends, people who I thought I'd spend my life laughing with but I guess that's life. I even stopped blogging, alot has changed.

I could have picked a more sciency major. But I didn't want to, honestly, I don't think I would have liked to have spent the next three four years of my life looking at a paramecium through a microscope. I'm not undermining other people who think paramecia and amoebas are fascinating, It's just that that's not how I feel. So I picked MC as a major and I got in. So I'm honestly really thankful and relieved. Because at least I have the next three years of my life figured out and then I can do my masters and then I can get a job and become independent and get myself and my family out of this rut. Actually, I think I already am independent. It's just the way how I feel about myself and we're not really living in a rut, its more like our state of mind. The worries about tomorrow that's makes us feel trapped but tomorrow can be good, can't it? so here we are, going through each day, hoping for a better tomorrow. I just wish, we have our fair share of good todays then I guess the good tomorrows will come our way anyway.

For Sean Abbott

And right now, when we are all praying for exam results, for our sisters and brothers, praying that we make enough money or whether we are good enough or pretty enough or smart enough I hope we can all remember to pray for Sean Abbott. May his grief subside one day, enough for him to be happy again, to allow himself to be happy, to do the things he loves and to able to grow and continue grow, leaving aside all his sorrows and regrets.

With love,
Marvi.

Please ignore Vera Dietz

"It's one thing if he wants to ignore it. I guess that's fine. I mean, I ignore plenty of stuff, like school spirit days and the dirty looks I get from the Detentionheads while I try to slink through the halls unnoticed. But there's something about telling other people what to ignore that just doesn't work for me. Especially things we shouldn't be ignoring. 

Kid bullying you at school? Ignore him. Girl passing rumors? Ignore her. Eighth grade teacher pinch your friend's ass? Ignore it. Sexist geometry teacher says girls shouldn't go to college because they will only ever pop out babies and get fat? Ignore him. Hear that a girl in my class is being abused by her stepfather and had to go to the clinic? Hear she's bringing her mother's pills to school and selling them to pay for it? Ignore, ignore, ignore. Mind your own business. Don't make waves. Fly under the radar. It's just one of those things, Vera. I'm sorry, but I don't get it. If we're supposed to ignore everything that's wrong with our lives, then I can't see how we'll ever make things right."

This is the first book I read after my exam, it was good but it wasn't that good. But one thing's for sure its really something teens and young adults can relate to. Life is bumpy and teenage years can be hell. Everyone around in school is trying to become somebody and people are constantly in a fight with themselves, it just makes matters worst for the people around them. Vera Dietz is a good kid, though her life hasn't been very easy, I really loved her dad, though I found her friend Charlie to be a maniac to be quite honest but yeah like I said, the story is still good.

Somewhere along the line, I want to write a young adult novel, I just want to write something that kids can relate to, so that they know that yeah life is crappy but you have to keep going anyway. That friends are important and so is family but what's most important is to figure out who you really are and what you want to be.  

Sometimes, you really wish life came with an instruction booklet, or that we just signs from somewhere like no, turn back. The outcome is not worth it or keep going, things will get better in a week but then I guess we wouldn't learn, and what would be the fun in that? :)